SELF EXPLAINATORY

I miss Guam…I miss the beach and the ocean water… Sigh what it is to be homesick for Guam in Washington

School

Tomorrow ill be in my 8th mod at school which means a lot of pretty faces are going off to externs and are 200hours from being full fledged medical assistants…very emotional day…seeing them accomplish their dreams today removitated me to get my groove back at school…to everyone out there working towards their dreams/goals….my hats off to ya!!! May you accomplish your goals and better yourself as you see fit :)

if you really knew me…

today i was on Youtube…browsing like i usually do when im bored with nothing to do or just plain procrastinating.  I came across these videos titled “if you really knew me” and let me tell you…all the times in high school in my support group when people told me it would get better came pouring thru my mind. i remember what it was like to look for love in all the wrong places…to sit on my bed and cry looking for answers in the blood trickling down my arm. when i felt the most emotional pain was when i would cut the most…all those times you told me i was stupid and would amount to nothing…i believed you…when you called me fat..i ate more to make me feel better…when you told me to get our of your house..i could wait to walk out that door…but i never had anyplace to go…since then things have gotten better for me, sometimes i still struggle with cutting…i look at a knife and imagine how it would feel across my skin but then i remember how far i’ve come from my last cut and i snap out of it…to these girls who are brave enough to put yourselves out there like that…you have so much courage…and if you ever…EVER need anyone to talk to about ANYTHING…i am here for you and i do care for you